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I’ve been struggling lately with being my LOs pacifier.. every nap, every night, most of the night. Sometimes I’m lucky to have the bed to myself from 9-2am. Sometimes as early as midnight. But inevitably, she’s in our bed every night. Sometimes she feeds, sometimes she doesn’t.

Today, I took the rail off her crib, as if I was converting it to the toddler bed, but didn’t lower the mattress and moved it up against my side of the bed. Filled the gap between her mattress and my bed frame, and now her crib sits about 5 inches lower than my bed so I can easily tap her bum or rub her belly.

Nurse her to sleep, switched my nipple for the pacifier with success, and laid with her a few more minutes. Sit up and go to transfer her, wakes up screaming bloody blue murder. Noooothing settles her until I bring her back in my bed and put her on the boob.

Obviously my husband came in when he heard her. And for the first time, I snapped. Said I can’t do anything when she’s awake because she’s got a 10 minute chill, literally. And I can’t do anything when she’s sleeping because I always have to be next to her.. so obviously I’m laying here nursing her (literally lasts 10 seconds) ans then she just rests her head on my boob and sleeps.

And im suddenly ridden with guilt for how upset I was about her constantly needing me.. I know I should give myself grace. My husband reminds me 24/7 how good of a mom I am, and how much she loves her mommy. But I’m so torn in my feelings right now.. I’m still upset that I can never do anything.. but I feel sick with guilt for feeling that way?

And yes.. as I’m typing this, we’re snuggled in my bed with her cheek on my boob 🥹🥹

Edited to add: LO is 4.5mo

Just what the title says.. my LO is 4.5 months. Never really loved pacifiers, but did take to the hospital one for about a month, and then just stopped wanting it.

About a month ans a half, maybe 2 months ago, we started co sleeping periodically. After a few weeks of 10 hour nights, the sudden 2am feeds were difficult, so I’d bring her in to bed. Naps and nighttime she nurses to sleep.

As of lately, I’ve noticed that she’s just using me as a pacifier and often falls back asleep within 10 seconds, but this is now causing some veeeery sleepless nights because she’s just popping on and off the boob. During naps I don’t really mind, and some nights I don’t either. But it’s becoming exhausting because I’d like to have at least the evenings to get some things done, but it’s always such a hit or miss whether or not she will need me.

Just looking for some similar experiences, how some tips and tricks. I have 2 ziplocs of pacifiers, none of which she likes.. I know she won’t be this little forever and so for the most part I try to soak it in. But it’s equally draining at times. But as always, I’ll feel guilty about this post by the time she goes for her first nap today 😂

Just what the title says.. my LO is 4.5 months. Never really loved pacifiers, but did take to the hospital one for about a month, and then just stopped wanting it.

About a month ans a half, maybe 2 months ago, we started co sleeping periodically. After a few weeks of 10 hour nights, the sudden 2am feeds were difficult, so I’d bring her in to bed. Naps and nighttime she nurses to sleep.

As of lately, I’ve noticed that she’s just using me as a pacifier and often falls back asleep within 10 seconds, but this is now causing some veeeery sleepless nights because she’s just popping on and off the boob. During naps I don’t really mind, and some nights I don’t either. But it’s becoming exhausting because I’d like to have at least the evenings to get some things done, but it’s always such a hit or miss whether or not she will need me.

Just looking for some similar experiences, how some tips and tricks. I have 2 ziplocs of pacifiers, none of which she likes.. I know she won’t be this little forever and so for the most part I try to soak it in. But it’s equally draining at times. But as always, I’ll feel guilty about this post by the time she goes for her first nap today 😂

I gave up on my dream of having a family in my mid twenties, I’m now 33 and living the life I dreamt of my whole life. I’m a SAHM, husband works 9-5 Mon-Fri. Lo is exclusively breastfed, minus ine formula bottle after her bath every night that dad gives her.

Yesterday for the first time, she did the “cross identification” where she starts touching your face.. but she did it to my husband as soon as she popped off the boob in bed between us.

He got her first smile and her first laugh. And now this.

While I fell in love with him for the second time when our daughter was born, it’s been the most amazing thing to watch them together after we both wanted a boy so badly. I’m so grateful that we had a girl, because watching them is seriously the most wholesome thing. He’s been the absolute most present father and husband I’ve ever witnessed. Literally takes on at least half of the mental load, as well as physical (minus feeding).

As much as I’m soooo beyond happy that she clearly adores her father, I feel a little ripped off lmao.. any similar stories?