u/RevertDaydreams

Hi all, I am just looking for any advice and words of wisdom, especially if anyone experienced similar sentiments from their partner, but I am a first-time mother and stay-at-home mother as well, and I have wanted to cloth-diaper from the very beginning. At first my husband really liked the concept, and we used all-in-ones when the baby was just a newborn, but he continues to buy disposable diapers now (we use Cloth-eez workhorses and waterproof outers now with the occasional cotton or cotton and hemp doublers) and complains about the cloth diapers and has told me he does not want to do it [cloth diapering] anymore. I want to continue to cloth-diaper for financial reasons but also to limit my environmental footprint with a new baby. And I am home with the baby by myself from approximately 7am to 11pm every weekday, so I am the only one changing the baby's diaper. Is there anything I might be able to do or say here in defense of cloth diapering? He ordered a HUGE box of disposables to our home today, and I feel pressured to just give in and give up. Thank you in advance.

I moved to the other side of the country to live with my husband, no village nearby, as his family lives to the east and my family to the west. We are stuck in the middle. I got pregnant very early into marriage, and I was filled with a pit of dread; I was excited and had always wanted a family, but I was so scared.

I was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum by my first OBGYN appointment and was in and out of the ER for the next nine months. I suffered a placental abruption in labor, and we also discovered baby was breech. C-section recovery was brutal. I cried a lot. I am still crying. Constantly.

My husband works from 7am well past 11pm most days. He goes straight to bed. I feel resentful (I do not want to feel that way; my husband works very hard to provide for us, and his higher-ups are just awful to him) and defeated.

Seeing two therapists now and ready to admit I am struggling with some PPD. In-law drama, and they now do not want to visit us here and state I/we should come to them, but a) I cannot imagine traveling with a baby and b) I really do not feel comfortable flying until the baby is a year old and has received her measles vaccine. Constant clouds over me.

So, how does anyone do this? And without a village? I have lost myself. Baby is 3 months now and only wants contact naps, does not take a bottle, and is no longer taking pacifiers either. I will be hiring a postpartum doula starting next week (which took convincing my husband and I feel like a disappointment because of it). Difficult to see the clear skies from here. Any advice is appreciated. Thank you for reading my ramblings of a sad FTM.