u/Resident_Tea_7877

I have been away from my abusive ex-husband for three years. I am states away.

Yesterday a man I loved in college reached out to me. We wanted to be together but it never worked out. I don't expect we will develop a relationship because both of our lives are complicated at the moment, but I did remember some of our more gentle moments all those years ago.

My mind involuntarily recalled my ex-husband cornering me. He always did that before strangling me. My body experienced it as real even if my conscience knew it wasn't.

I just need someone to hear me who understands that I've learned my nervous system recognizes closeness as a threat to my safety. I tried to tell some close friends and they said I'd find love. That's not the point of this realisation. I still am not ready for that, and may never be.

Hello.

I've been learning Python for about a year on Codecademy. There's not enough practice but the structure works for me.

I work in data annotation and am trilingual. From everything I've researched, learning Python is the way to go for my skill set. I get contacted by recruiters frequently because I display my certificates.

How do I more efficiently learn this?! I won't quit because that's my personality but I'm extremely frustrated with the inefficiency of learning.

Rickman's diction is what draws me to him. My manner of speaking is the same unless I heavily filter myself. My whole life I was told I "talk funny." It's led to perceptions that I'm arrogant, or if I avoid speaking, "standoffish."

Am I alone in this quality being the main point of admiration of the man's character? Where do you find people who understand you?