u/Renmeya

I’m at the point I literally can’t have snacks in the house at all.

It feels like there’s a screaming in my head once I start that’s only dampened whilst eating.

When I get like that I’m just standing in the kitchen eating whatever I can find or raiding the house trying to find stuff.

Which tbh is rare is these days as my family know what I’m like and my mum gets so mad at me.

A lot of times I don’t know if you can even call it a ‘binge’ as it’s like less than 1k calories from empty but if I eat anything without control(for me control is purposely planning my meal/snack and sitting down to eat it) I can not settle or stop the food noise till I purge.

It’s only then I can return to normal and move away from the kitchen and do other things.

Anyone else do this often?

I’ll end up ordering takeaway-usually Chinese.

By the time it arrives I’ve usually already binged on everything else I can find in the house or made up some disgusting cookie dough concoction.

Due to this I end up only eating like 1/5th of everything before too bloated. I then end up throwing everything away to stop myself binging on it later.

Feels extremely shameful,I had to pour washing liquid over it otherwise I’d have dug it out the trash too. 🤦‍♀️ But the bit that kills me even more is how much money i am draining by doing this. I’ll purposefully make sure I don’t have tons of treats in my home but then I’ll end up getting Uber eats instead!