u/Relevant-Astronaut27

Im 47 and have finally fully realized i am happiest living alone and single. I have only been been single for a few years mixed in a 10 yr period. Had a unhappy 14yr marriage, after a1 yr i started dating. ive ran the gammut of dating and relationships and periods of single. It always starts with ive done the work im in a great space, then I get in a relationship, do a nose dive on myself, breakup because I realized I fell for their false narratives.then start back over. This time I met a good person, 2.5yrs, 2 of which was a contentious custody battle I supported him through only to realize I did it to myself again. I diminished myself, became the sole house manager, the relationship manager, etc. All so I could drain myself financially again, push down my normal self again, lose myself again.for being single I know there are lots of things that can make it difficult, I know one for me is there can be periods of loneliness, but I think the root for me becomes boredom and not fully investing in platonic relationships/support systems. What have yall found to be the hardest and what did you do to help yourself through it?