23F &43M; I need advice
I met my man about 3 or so years ago when I started at new job in another state. I knew of him but it wasnt until the 2nd year he got my number and I drunkenly invited him over to my house.
I have been happy but there has been tough times to handle. His family know of my age and love me as their own but no one apart from them knows about our relationship.
For awhile theres been medical problems on his side and ive been trying my best to support him and his parents despite all the pressure and stress that it has put me under.
He says im the one thing that makes him happy and not depressed. He relies on me a lot emotionally. But I feel like I miss being single and im young/dumb and i want to have fun. Im not sure anymore if I want to be stuck in such a big gap relationship hiding secrets. I miss having my own time and space; I feel bad for being distant but I want to focus on myself.
I also feel like we're at different life stages. Im starting to build my life on my own and hes already doing his life and owns a couple houses. I say I dont want kids but what if in the future I want some?. Im not sure what I want
I know he would take it really badly if we broke up and I would have to see him around work. I want to be there for him still but not in a relationship I guess. He said his previously relationship ended badly when things got tough for him.
I dont know what to do.