Just a rant.
I haven’t been sleeping great, and I’m extra irritable because of my period. I pushed myself yesterday by deep cleaning, doing laundry, and trying to figure out medical insurance crap. So today my skin hurts and I’m exhausted. I got a new brand of melatonin but the pills are unmarked so that’s messing with my contamination OCD. I tried twice to take it last night and couldn’t bring myself to, which pissed me off because even though I know I’m the one that opened the bottle, fear stopped me.; so I didn’t fall asleep til 1 am, the woke up extra early at 6:45, (I have to, otherwise I get berated for sleeping in.) had coffee and was on hold with insurance for a while. I finally got it sorted out. But jeez, I’ve been waiting almost two months for my damn heath insurance card and they said it would take 45 days at most. Turns out they never even mailed it out because of an error in their system, and had to enter it manually. 😤
Anyway, my brain fog is extra bad right now, and I have a hard time following verbal directions but my family wanted to play a board game. I hate learning new games. It’s too overwhelming and I don’t have the patience. While the rules were getting explained to me, I guess I was making a face because I couldn’t follow along. Well then I got told that I’m “choosing to be overwhelmed instead of just listening to the explanation.” The fuck does that mean? But yeah, it’s my fault for being disabled too I guess. I fucking can’t with the ableist bullshit around here. God forbid I show any discomfort, or have a bad day.