u/Reasonably-Cold-4676

I forgot where exactly I read it, I think it was Wheeler, and it had stuck with me ever since:

Apparently schizoids tend to see themselves as ideal partners and can imagine to be with basically anyone. That's because they're so emotionally intelligent that they adapt/mask easily and so detached that they have no clue who they really are and who would actually fit them and who they would really fit. They end up with partners that might turn out over time or seen from the outside to not fit well at all.

I know a lot of people here wouldn't touch a relationship with a ten foot pole, but what about those of you who are in or tried relationships? have you ever felt like the above?

Because, it sucks but it describes me very well. I was wondering if anyone can relate in any way.

Triggered by the masturbation topic and because I've been struggling the most with the idea of love, I thought I'd bring the topic up again.

I discovered I'm schizoid about half a year ago. I've struggled with being sure if I'm actually capable of love before, too, but it's become a lot clearer since. For the last couple of months I thought I was capable of feeling love, I just lack certain aspects of it. But now I'm not so sure anymore which is why I wanted to ask those of you who think they feel love experience love or do love/am loving how you know.

Can you please give me some pointers or explain how you know it's love, either the feeling or doing it or even any other dimension?

for context, I'm 41afab and married 15+ years

Seriously, it's weird. I'm not usually lonely, hardly ever. But the "better" life is, the more i feel lonely and i have no clue what that's about. I just had a seemingly good week: met friend, was out in nature, slept enough, heakth better, did sports, worked well, ate well, accomplished some stuff. Overall basically busy and productive.

Feels like shit though. idk why but it leaves me feeling lost and pointless, which i can live with, but wtf is the sudden loneliness about?