Is anyone else fucking angry?
I'm angry. There were so many times in my life when someone could have intervened.
One example is my family used to attend a 'family' christmas party every year, it was a long held tradition. it was that typical family party witb family friends where you attend when young and get bored, then start to enjoy when you get older and are able to talk to people.
The first time I remember vividly is when I was allowed to pick my own dress out. I made a massive deal out of it and my Grandpa offered to pay for it. I could have got the most stupid dress imaginable and my Grandpa would have told me I was beautiful. I was 14 at the time and was a goth so it was very gothic but clearly a dress for a teenager.
I remember splitting from my family and going to the buffet table and grabbing a prosecco.
(side note - I'm nearly 28 now and still get checked when buying wine, I look young now and so much so then)
This man came up and started talking to me, reader I was thrilled! I was 14 and this man started talking to me saying I was so interesting and had such insight. I of course loved it and continued chatting away. We chatted for like an hour then got naturally separated by the party.
That man started bragging to another guy about how mature I was, how much insight I had etc ...
That man was my father, and he informed the guy I was 14. that's the good shit right? thats the fatherly thing to do right?
NO, every year I was called that man's little wife. it was encouraged I would see him and act like it. that's so fucked up. I was encouraged to flirt with this 30 year old man when I was 14 then 3 became a running joke. they made me kiss him.
feels good for getting this out. I'm just so angry all the time.