u/Ready-Structure-3936

It’s been over a week since my girlfriend broke up with me, she wasn’t just another girl in the books. We were going to get married, have kids, take the same career path together, and she was so unique, I’ve never met ANYONE not even just friends that are as special and unique as her.

The pain is terrible, I haven’t eaten in 5 days. I can’t sleep. And I don’t want to live in a world where I’m not with her. Everyone says it will get better with time but I don’t believe it. I just want it all to be over with. I’ve been drinking a lot which is very unusual for me. And basically as soon as I wake up to the moment I fall asleep
I’m crying. I don’t have any motivation to do anything, and laying here alone is just making it worse. I would just rather not be here than live through this pain

Howdy im debating between memecense and midnight, i used to use rk website if you know the name (i cant say it against rules) and just want to get something off of there so for now ill avoid nl or the other popular more private cheats, im going to legit cheat so no rage or obvious stuff. also wondering what are good habits or a good playstyle to prevent getting "marked red" or "vac lived" as ive heard, not sure what those mean either if someone could help with that.