This show sucks
I get it, the suffering reminds him it's real, he wants to stay in this rut because when he's happy he feels like he made up all that crap to get attention. He didn't. There are ups and downs.
But god when he's down and I do everything to help and he does mental gymnastics and bends over backwards to find a way to make it so that it made him worse I lose my damn mind!
"I don't want to feel better", cool, so lets examine my options...
I can say "I don't want to watch this", to which SH will be attempted, or "everyone leaves me" will be said, or he'll post vague things online
I stay and try to provide comfort by being there, which will result in "You should just break up with me" "I don't deserve you" and he'll accept no reassurance
I will say AGAIN that he needs professional help to which he will get angry at or promise me he will but not follow through
I went through this too, there has to be effort to fix it!
I woke up in such a good mood and now it's all been sucked out of me because I'm in a Catch-22 all the damn time