I think I'm just delulu atp...
I really like this guy but the problem is he is in college and I'm not. I know that might seem weird but we have known each other for many years and we did/are a part of all the same clubs. We both are in band, power lifting, nhs, etc. and have connected through those activities and we are good friends. I just really love being around him and we talk sooo much together, after my winter concert we talked for over an hour. Last winter, he drove 5 hours to help my classmate and I with our area audition music, and he just seems like he cares about me because not everyone would come all that way just to help me yk?
Later, I visted his college because I'm actually thinking about going there (it's not because he goes there I swear) and his brother gave me a tour of the school. When I saw my crush that morning his face kinda seemed to light up and he seemed happy to see me, he even joked around with me and talked a little bit to my parents. After the tour before we left he asked us how it went and things like that. We also went to his concert that night and I got to talk to him more.
He is just a good person and doesn't judge me for anything, but I think that is just how he is or if he actually likes me in some way. We always talk at band events and I'm not sure if he really likes me or if he is just being nice to me.
I feel like I'm always crushing on someone but he is a good guy but I'm a little worried because he is 3 years older than me and that gap seems a little large for me right now. I've been thinking about it and I might just focus on myself and just cherish the friendship and not wish for anything more unless it happens