Urgent advice needed
Hello everyone I am 30 year old male. I was married a year ago and I am suffering from severe premature ejaculation, small di*k size (3.5inch), girth is also very less. This problem has been since I got to know about masturbation( basically) forever. All my life I have been worried about it, I have lived all my life in fear what if someone saw my penis, they will laugh, what if I can not satisfy my wife, all these questions have ruined my life to a point where nothing feels good, I have become bitter , I get angry on small things, I just wants to be alone ,locked in a room for my whole life, but I always believed doctors will have some solution for this but as I grew older and went to many doctors and gone through all the possible medication, I realised there is no solution and never will be, atleast for me. Even with all this I was okay with everything somehow but now I have a wife, a beautiful, gentle and a pure soul, whose life I have ruined by marrying her. I want to make her happy, give her everything that she deserves but I can not. She does not want to leave me, she says she will live like this, so leaving her is not a option, so I am asking all of you what can I do? How can I help her. I know she wants to be loved but she won't even look at anyone else other than me. Medicine can not help me even if there is some medicine which can help with premature ejaculation but there is nothing than can improve size and girth.
Note- I have taken 60mg dapoxitine, 40mg doses of tadalfil( sometimes twice a day, I know it's risky but ) both of these together. I have taken paroxetine also for a long time. And any other medicines suggested by doctors. Nothing works no matter the dose.
I want to give up everything but I don't have that option either. So what am I suppose to do?