Hello all I have never done this before... I'm 25F and he's 27F, and we're doing well in the relationship 🧿 we met through a dating app which was unexpected and unconventional but found to have been the perfect match.
Because of the life he lives, it does get very difficult for us to be a "normal" couple, even in the definition of long distance. We do calls often, messages not very frequently because we rather hear each other.. and video calls are rare although they do happen when he is in a non confidential zone. I like him a lot and he has also said the same and there's nothing wrong with the relationship if I had to say so.
My problem is, and maybe I'm selfish to feel this way, but I am at a point in life where I want a normal relationship if that makes sense.. we haven't been able to meet each other for over a year now because his leaves keep getting cancelled or not granted due to my country having been at W@R.
I am very proud of him for protecting our country so selflessly, and will always be, but I have in a way lost myself.. I worry a lot on days we don't get to talk, and I hate that we haven't been able to see each other in person for so long.. I have brought it up a couple of times and he always sounds defeated because he genuinely doesn't have an option but to wait for leaves to be granted..
My mind is always thinking about when we will get to meet again..and I am losing myself, I'm not interested in any of my hobbies, I cannot focus on work, even though I meet friends often I just fall back into the sad place when I'm back home especially after seeing couples outside..
I know this man is the one for me, I know that, but I don't want to get to the point where I have completely lost myself before he even gets here to meet me again.
I need advice please,how can I bring back the spark in myself? I don't like myself right now at all..