u/Queenofwands1212

I’m very grateful that I’ve made it this far. However, now my immense fear of bulimia coming back into the picture has only caused me to go deeper into my anorexia. Deeper than I’ve been since high school. Many years ago. My panic and dread and anxiety around over eating or volume eating and purging has completely taken over. When I was in the bulimia I have always been an orthorexic anorexic bulimic. Not the ice cream pizza cake bulimic. I’ve always been orthorexic and anorexic even when I was a healthy bmi I was an orthorexic. So now I am just spiraled in the orthorexic and anorexic tendencies. I go 2 days without eating often. I knock myself out with my anxiety meds and muscle relaxers so I can get sleep and restoration from working out and sauna use. Some days I will eat a little meal- or a normal sized meal but it has become an experience of panic and chaos. When I finally get good sleep/ I choose sleep over eating. And if I miss my specific potential meal or snack times it’s just a missed the boat scenario. “I’ll eat later” or I’ll eat after I get some more sleep. Then later comes and I never eat. I don’t want to eat my main meal right before bed. It truly feels like no time of day or night is appropriate for me to eat. I’m just all fucking over the place. So yay almost 90 days purge and bulimia free but I’m in a different prison now. A less violent but still insane prison

The amount of fear and terror I hear in the health and wellness space about how instant and abrupt weight gain happens to perimenopause women… okay well what about for those of us who are anorexic or bulimic and we are underweight. How is my body going to just gain belly fat and all this fat over night or in a short period of time if I am in a legitimate calorie deficit and I workout every single day and use the sauna. I am literally spiraling in my mind right now listening to this expert talk about how the fat is gained so quickly. I just don’t think this is physically possible for everyone especially women who are physically active, aren’t eating a surplus, aren’t eating unhealthy, I am literally an anorexic orthorexic - I have thankfully been purge free for almost 90 days. I’m not volume eating and over eating like I was when I was insanely bulimic. I haven’t gained any weight since stopping purging because I am no longer eating a fuck load of food. I’m just really mentally drained and now I have to be fearful about this horrible horrific weight gain that could come at any moment over night?????

I’m a new seller on Etsy. I have an incredibly huge collection of all jewelry types. Over 7,000 pieces I’m sure. It’s a mix of costume jewelry, vintage, classic, hippie boho, boho chic, 80s, 90s and early 2000s. Necklaces, bracelets, rings, belts, pins etc. I want to make sales sooner than later. So I am doing mystery grab bags as my first project. It’s a nice mixture of bracelets, necklaces and rings / earrings for jewelry collectors who love estate sales and thrifting. Buyer can put a request in the purchase but I will be sure to write in the description that requests are not 100% guaranteed. Has anyone had success with this style of selling?

EDIT- just so everyone can calm down a little bit. I am learning from you guys/ I read the comments and I am learning. I will NOT be selling jewelry that isn’t atleast 20 years old. That means anything from 2006 and earlier. Now that I’ve made that clear- I hope to get some nice, and not mean advice or ideas that have helped people.