Suicidal Partner (TW: SA mention)
I don’t really know how to start this, but my partner has been extremely suicidal the last few weeks. Hopelessness, repeatedly telling me their life will never improve, it’s always going to be awful, all that sort of thing. They were also insistent that they were going to end their life, and would only give me the courtesy of letting me know, then doing it.
We don’t life together, and are maybe a 30-40 minute drive away, so it isn’t like I could rush to help them if anything happened and they make sure to remind me of that.
They have tried help before, but suffer from an extremely mentally and verbally abusive family and household they are unable to leave at the moment, and have experienced sexual abuse as a younger teenager, which also is a major issue for them.
I’m finding it literally impossible to continue the relationship, my hair is falling out from stress, I’m losing focus in other areas of my life and I am finding little to no happiness in anything anymore, as well as lost sleep.
How do I navigate this? I cannot continue the relationship like this but I couldn’t possibly end it because that could be the last straw and end in them committing suicide.
please help me