Feeling lonely
I’ve been feeling really lonely lately. And by that, I don’t mean that I don’t have people around me — I actually have really wonderful and kind people in my life. It’s just that I’m missing something.
I don’t feel like I truly fit in anywhere. Like I said, I’ve got plenty of people around me, but not that typical big friend group with a WhatsApp chat that’s buzzing all day long. And it’s not that I necessarily want that, but I still miss something. I just don’t know what that “something” is, and that uncertainty makes me feel insecure.
When I’m home alone, I’m constantly on my phone and just lying on the couch or in bed. I feel pretty useless if I don’t have to work.
Falling asleep is hard, because I keep overthinking everything. I can’t seem to quiet my mind, and I keep turning and tossing until, after two or three hours, I finally fall asleep.
My goal here is simply to let things out a bit and have an honest conversation without being judged.