I love this subreddit
I’m so appreciative of everyone who’s posting here, I’ve always known I’ve had ocd and it technically explains my experiences with it but even so I always felt crazy, like there was something worse wrong with me, it feels like everywhere else when ppl talk about ocd it’s somewhat light, I’m not talking about the bs “my ocd is so bad i need organize my room teehee” i mean even when people with ocd talk about it, its always really surface level, which I don’t blame them for because if you go deeper anywhere else you will get called crazy and shamed. I’ve never felt so seen before, ocd runs and ruins my life, i had to shave my head from severe trichotillomania mania, I developed agoraphobia from it, disturbing taboo intrusive thoughts that even become intrusive dreams, and extremely distressing obsessive behavior towards people my brain tells me I have a crush on, I could deal with obsessive thoughts about anything else (‘but the taboo intrusive thoughts) but my ocd is especially triggered by these fake crushes. I’ve had a lot of themes in my life and I realize from this subreddit that I’m not crazy and it feels so so so good. I’ve ended up hospitalized a few times and I realize a huge contributor was my OCD, and I didn’t have a space that made me feel validated and also helped me to distinguish reality from the delusions my ocd burdened me with. I almost want to cry, I can’t express my appreciation enough for this space and I wish I found it sooner, it’s too hard to find places where people talk about the deep reality of ocd instead of the watered down interpretations. It’s amazing how people are understanding and compassionate to ppl here about the way ocd shows up while also not feeding into it and worsening the behaviors