Studying in Aachen was a very lonely and depressing experience..
Hi everyone!
I just wanted to get some things off my chest.. I am an International (non-EU) Student doing my Masters at RWTH. I came here to Aachen/Germany so excited for the opportunity, and I'm so grateful I like the University and my course and am working hard towards my goals! :) But it is SO LONELY! Plus, getting a spot in the dorms was near impossible for me, so I'm in a WG, with a roomate and building mates that don't talk to each other AT ALL, it feels so surreal and alienating...
In my program, most people just vanish after the class ends.. Even at the Working Student job at the company, co workers are polite for sure, but not really social with me and quite visibly don't include in conversations during lunch and afterwards.. I so sense some subtle racism in the way they talk down to me as well :/
I am an introvert by nature so it takes a lot for me to put myself out there socially in the first place... But still I don't want to be isolated/alone so I do go to Uni social events sometimes and socialize/mingle with people and it's nice to meet new people but I feel like contacts/exchanges fade away so quickly and become strangers again, which is fair I know, everyone is busy...
It's just that I can't take it anymore, being alone in a foreign country without family/support system managing studies, work, and living on my own independently and all the tasks that come with that.. It's severely affecting my mental health and I am thinking of going back home, all my hard work down the drain :(
Yes, I know there is typical other things I can do like go seek counselor/therapy or join a University club or something, but I don't really have the mental capacity for that anymore..
I don't know I can't help but feel this way... Can anyone relate?