Ughhh today is worse than yesterday. I can’t get rid of these chills and sweats. I’m about to shower and head into work a little late bc I just could not get out of bed. I’m honestly contemplating working remote bc I just don’t feel right but then I’d have to make up this day in the office later this week. I wish I had better news to report. Nothing severe just annoying enough to want to stay hiding in bed.
Hello! My last dose of 7 was at like 3:45 yesterday. Been dosing regular leaf. Last night I almost caved and bought more but with a little help from this community I was talked off the metaphorical ledge. I went to bed around maybe 9 or 10pm. Slept until 3:15am and withdrawals were peaking their head in so I dosed 4grams of regular leaf and slept again until like 6:30. Got up and was in withdrawal again - I must say not as intensely as I was the first two days from last week. Had I not broken this weekend I’d probably be on the clear tomorrow but now it’s looking like Wednesday or Thursday will be the day - awesome just in time for pay day to hit! Struggle is real. Might give my money to family so I cannot do anything stupid. To anybody reading my story that might think “what a loser - who loses everything over something like 7” and my answer to you is an addict. An addict will lose everything to anything. A fiend is a fiend. I know someone who can take 7 without addiction issues or ruining his life - I don’t know how he does it but he isn’t a fiend out opiate addict like I am / he has self control. I do not. Yea thank god this isn’t a stronger opiate or I’d be toast.
Hello - as you all know I have been detoxing and then failed yesterday when I found a piece in my pocket. I’m taking a break from detoxing this Mother’s Day so I can enjoy time with my son. I will be back to the detox grind tonight / tomorrow morning. Hopefully not at square one but I am prepared for square one again I guess. And this time there are no hidden pieces anywhere bc the odds of that happening twice are slim to none. Of course I got some 7 in my system and all the sudden the fiend in me was able to Whoopty whoop some cash together and buy a tab for today. Just sharing my story - I will be back tomorrow. Happy Mother’s Day to my fellow mommas out here! I hope you have a peaceful loving day!
Ugh!!!! You guys I was moving along so swell then I put on a pair of shorts from the other day and what do you know a 50mg piece just chillen in the pocket. U bet I took a small bite out of it immediately bc I have no self control. I am taking the L. Now it’s back to day 0 - but I think it won’t set me back really. Like I don’t think my withdrawals are going to come back as intense - I think they will just be the same as they were this morning - which is annoying as F and now they are gonna last probably a day or two longer than they would have. Not gonna lie - it is nice to have a break from the withdrawal just to get ur mind right but dangit! So mad at myself. I hope this doesn’t happen again.
Finally. But I still have chills taking over. Sleep was ok last night. Wish these chills would end. I have a long day of watching my son so I really need all the prayers that today goes well. My energy is LOW. Today is another gym day. I usually go to the gym around this time but I’m having too much anxiety. Not sure I wanna lift heavy weights right now. So I might just go later today. The light should be coming soon!
I feel awful. The whole 9 yards of symptoms. Regular leaf is not breaking through. Am I not taking enough? I don’t want the wobbles which is why I stay on the lower side. Chills galore. I never have to feel this way the rest of my life is I never take it again. That’s all I have right now. I get to work from home today thank god. Will just take it super easy. Gotta get my son to school in the next couple hours. Debating if I should go to the gym / it’s my normal gym day but I don’t want to be freezing cold sweating at the gym. Plus my anxiety has me scared of leaving my bed. Been up since 4am. Got two 4 hour chunks of sleep last night thanks to the regular leaf. Woke up writhing around sweating and freezing. Thank god I washed my sheets and made my bed up all nice and cleaned my room in preparation of this or I’d have that on my mind. I can’t believe that god doesn’t have a cure for this.
Barely got out of bed. Had some MIT lying around but that was the last of it. Does anybody know if clonidine would be a good route? I know it helped me in previous detoxes but it also makes me feel like I’m walking around in sand (awful feeling). Has anybody used clonidine to stop 7?
Just took my last dose. I don’t have anymore. I don’t have any ability to get more. I have regular leaf to get me thru the first 4-5 days then it’s cold turkey from regular leaf as well as I have no means to get more. I’m shaking scared. I work full time and I have a 2.5 year old. I’ve done it before and it took 6 days before the symptoms really started to fade. Wish me luck!