Undiagnosed AuDHD + adolescent teenager = anarchy..
I'm gonna start this kind of like a story time or something but I'm using this both to vent and write my feelings somewhere, but maybe even ask for advice. I don't expect advice but it will come in handy.
I am currently 14. Ever since I was a toddler I didn't fit in as much. I was abnormally smart too - there are videos of 4 year old me using Google (not over voice - literally on a keyboard), talking about Android and Windows and God knows what else.. I could talk and write in both Bosnian (home country language) and English better than a lot of kids in my class.
Every grade I ever got was an A or B, but on occasion I got horribly bad grades. Nothing to screw me up luckily.
Around.. I want to say 13, I was on the web way more. I forgot what chain of events lead to this but I figured out I had a sign of autism. And then another chain of events lead, I found memes which were about AuDHD and I never felt more at home. I felt like I finally found the instruction manual, or finally found the correct charger for myself. (That sounds wrong..)
So i researched and researched and lived with that fact. Then another chain of events and I figured out that my weird pain with studying could be AuDHD - possibly even from genetics.
My aunt had similar stuff as me (grandma told me) and someone else told her that it could be ADHD.
I decided to tell my parents and they crashed out. No tech for two months as well. Although the no-tech rule was more for not studying even though I wasn't able to easily due to AuDHD so technically it's still related.
The worst part? It always ends up fine. I end up telling myself, for example, "I'll tell them when I get a bad grade from History because I couldn't study" but then I get a good grade so I can't tell them.
I have a few B's on my report card and I know I always will unless I get this solved. I don't know much about AuDHD and such but if I could get this fixed I know I could excel.