u/PlateCurious1472

Ive been doing great I got medically cleared from everything else I started a new part time job and had finals last week tho. After the second day of this I started stroking out ( playful way to say mixing up words saying different words than intended and forgetting what im doing) my head also started hurting more tham usaul at the same time. Ive felt extremly overwhelmed since and I cant seem to focus (more than usaul lol).id love yo hear yals thoughts honestly I really want yall to be like yeah thats normal cause I just got done seeing doctors all the freaking time. Tia and have a great day

Its been a long time since I said anything in here for myself. Its been a long fucking year last year I was doing amazing I had just gotten a dream job I was learning new skills enjoying the sun having fun (speaking of which seasonal depression is supposed to be over whats wrong with me) I was on good terms with my lived ones. Since then Ive been hit by a truck still have a tbi bugging me from that even though i was just medically released. My parents amd my bf arnt on good terms. And I genuinely wasnt sure if I was really alive or not for several months. I dont know what I wamt in life or even if I love anything and I want so badly just to sea the insides of my arms and say good bye to everything but heaven forbid if I live after doing that. Heaven forbid I put my family through my death again. The need to do somthing to myself burns in my blood. I know thats probably inflation from stress (mostly from the tbi) and thay taking some ibuprofen and having a hot shower might help. I dont know how to talk about this irl I dont even know how to tell my therapist that I wamt to carve myself into fragments. Hell I dont even know how to tell her about my ex. I only know how to talk to my bf and I dont want to break his heart with this especially when he struggles with feeling inadequate. Have a good night and stay safe out their freinds.