Update on foster turning into hospice (Kirby)
Update on my past post: https://www.reddit.com/r/FosterAnimals/comments/1s4dyut/heartbroken_over_fostering_turning_into_possible/
First of all, thank you every single one for all your advices and words in what was a difficult situation to be in. Kirby stopped coughing within 1 week into her new medication, and her resting breath rate which had usually sat at 60 a minute, was down to 32-40.
So I was hopeful when I brought her in, and was sure to tell all about her progress and improvements from my POV. I also took the advice I got and asked the shelter personal if the 2 week limit was based on shelter finances rather than medical. I also offered and suggested that I would be able to personally fund further medication and tests if needed but was assured it wouldn't be as it wasn't about cost.
But destiny would have it the following morning, that despite the improvements I had seen that the new x-ray of her lungs showed no improvement and they decided to euthanize her.
It was on Wednesday and I have been broken ever since, hence the time it has taken to make this update. I am full of self blame on the outcome and regret. I keep thinking I should not only have offered to sponsor but specifically have told them that IF they were going to euthanize her they should have called me first so I could have had a chance to adopt her. While I'm not in a situation to permanently adopt, I could at least have given her a longer chance and passed her on if she got better. But I didn't and I am not sure how to live with myself, and I am so terribly sorry to the tiny creature that trusted me after her previous owner failed her.
I had fostered twice before (mom and kittens) and saying goodbye was tough and sad, but this is hurting at another level.