Dating in a small city makes me hopeless and depressed.
I’m 30, almost 31 and never been in an actual relationship other than a few first dates that went nowhere. I live in a city of about 250k and I never thought dating would be this comically terrible, but it is.
I grew up here and after college, I ultimately found a job here because I literally couldn’t get hired anywhere else.
I feel like I’m stuck here with no way out. I don’t have the funds to just pack up my shit and move. I visited a huge city, about 3 hours away, for a bachelor party not long ago and honestly, I was getting so many likes and matches on dating apps I didn’t even know where to begin. It felt unreal. For once I felt desired, even though it was ultimately just a fantasy. Many women wanted to meet up that same night.
I don’t know what to do anymore. My city is dogshit for dating. On the apps I rarely, if ever get a match and if I do, they never respond. Yet when I visited that “big city”, somehow I’m desirable.For some reason, nothing sticks here. I only get egged on or ghosted. What the fuck man? I’m kind of drunk rn, so that’s not helping.
I’ve tried putting myself out there more but there seems to be very little to do for the younger crowd. Then again, I’m almost 31, so I guess I’m closer to middle age at this point.
I have a great job, have security and stability (I own rental property) but I am so indescribably lonely. To make matters worse I have still yet to lose my V-card. Sure, I guess I could look for a job in a big city, but I spent years trying to do that and I was never able to get one fucking offer, only a few shitty interviews that went nowhere. Plus, my parents are getting older and my mom is already showing signs of serious aging. Not to mention, it is NOT a good time to be looking for a new job…
I hate it here. I’m on the verge of tears tbh, idk where this came from. Probably from listening to Abandon’s “The Dead End” album but it’s hitting the spot tonight…