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And I took all the pills I could stomach at 8:20 am it started out fine besides feeling like I was going to vomit but then the fatigue hit then the confusion then the slow and shallow breathing then my chest felt weird thinking back on the experience it was probably my heart beat not beating at it’s proper rhythm and then I felt so dizzy I’m not sure how long it took to take effect but last thing I remember was some | 2. how being in my bed and thought well this is goodbye. And based on what I know I was in a medicine induced coma until 7:00 pm and then I woke up I was very confused I thought I was dead at first but I was very slowly coming to and realizing I’m not dead and once I got the grasp of that I was like how how the hell am I not dead I took 4,500 milligrams of it but the. And somehow only then did my friends mom walk into mg room and tell me dinner was ready but at that time it was almost 8:00 pm so I had been sitting on my bed for almost whole hour the first part figuring out I wasn’t dead and the second part wondering how the hell am I alive but after that I called up my boy let’s call him J for the sake of his privacy but I called him and said we need to talk and I guess at the time I sounded very lethargic and his gut instinct was shit my boys in trouble he came and got me and I told him what had happened and he told me what he thought a little background context I’ve been raised in a Christian household but never really believed and I still didn’t fully believe until later that night but he said if u had taken that much and didn’t die God decided it wasn’t my time and I didn’t really know what to think I of that but he brought me back later that evening and he helped me research lasting side effects I need to watch out for on an overdose like that and the list was the following: Cardiac Issues (Bradycardia & Hypotension): Even after recovery, survivors should watch for signs of bradycardia (slow heart rate) or persistent hypotension (low blood pressure). This can cause persistent lightheadedness, fatigue, or fainting, as the heart works to regain its normal rhythm and strength. Neurological Complications: Due to the drug's effect on the central nervous system, survivors may experience long-term, though often temporary, effects such as fatigue, confusion, or even lingering, minor convulsions. Psychological and Emotional Effects: Survivors should be monitored for lingering anxiety, depression, or emotional instability, as propranolol—while used for anxiety—can cause, worsen, or trigger psychiatric symptoms, including depression and memory impairment. Reduced Functional Capacity: If the overdose led to severe hypotension and severe bradycardia, survivors may feel physically weak for an extended period, requiring rehabilitation or monitoring for heart failure (shortness of breath, leg swelling). Respiratory Changes: In some cases, survivors may experience ongoing issues with breathing or bronchospasm, especially if they have a history of asthma. But the part that worried me the most was this: Toxic Psychosis: Severe overdose can trigger "toxic psychosis," which may manifest as paranoia, visual hallucinations, and acute confusion. In some instances, this "paranoid psychosis" can resemble acute schizophrenia. Reversibility: Most documented cases of drug-induced psychosis from propranolol are reversible and typically resolve once the drug has cleared from the system. But when I got home I started to lay down and the psychosis kicked in and I was horrified I don’t wanna talk about what I saw just yet bet these screen shots I took from when I was at school from that nigh should be enough to get the point across

Fair warning this can be very triggering for some people. So long story short I’m adopted and ever since I was a toddler I have always been trying to kms and my adoptive parents made it abundantly clear they hate me and wish on multiple occasions I had succeeded in kms but I’ve been kicked out multiple times and even moved out twice and I now currently live with my friends family but on Saturday 04/24/26 I woke up to the news that my grandmother had passed away and my adoptive parents went to see my grandfather (he lives in a different state) and didn’t invite me to come because I’m too much of a burden to the family but after that I went into a really bad depression and had no on to talk to I tried to talk to my friend that I live with and his mom but at his current stage in life he’s being an absolute duck and selfish and the whole woe is me phase and like ig I get that but stfu sometimes you know? And his mom has no clue how to deal with mental health so with no one to talk to it kept getting worse and worse until Monday 04/27/26 rolled around and it was senior skip day at my school I woke up that morning feeling like a dead man walking and when everyone left for school and there mom went to work (she works from home) I told her I was going to take a nap at 8:00 am and she believed me because I hadn’t eaten or slept since Saturday. And I went up to my room with the only thought running through my mind being today is the day I die and I’m on antidepressants one of them for anxiety called propranolol and I already knew the minimum lethal dose was 2,000 milligrams and I had quite a few extra prescribed bottles with 90 pills in each bottle each pill being 20 milligrams. I did the math and was like huh that’s more than enough to kill me I have 360 pills here that’s 7,200 milligrams more than three times a lethal dose and at 8:15 am I made up my mind I decided that the date that would be on my tomb stone will be 04/27/2026 and for anyone who doesn’t know what propranolol will do if you take a lethal dose is it’s a beta blocker meaning it’s mainly used for lowering blood pressure and heart rate but most cases death is caused by the consumption of 2,000 or more milligrams and out of the 360 pills I took 225 pills that’s 4,500 milligrams or 4.5 grams that’s over double the lethal dose minimum and i consumed all the pills at 8:20 and if you don’t know the side effect of a propranolol overdose let me enlighten you the following are the most common side effects of a propranolol overdose: Key Symptoms of Propranolol Overdose: Cardiovascular: Profoundly slow heart rate (bradycardia), low blood pressure (hypotension), cardiac arrhythmias, and cardiogenic shock. Neurological: Seizures, coma, decreased level of consciousness, fatigue, and confusion. Respiratory: Shortness of breath, slow or difficult breathing, and potential respiratory depression. General/Other: Nausea, vomiting, dizziness, lightheadedness, cold extremities, and sweating. I'm adding a second and maybe third part if i cant add the screenshots to the second