u/PengwinNinja

I found that it’s really difficult for me to focus my energy into doing one single project.
I’m sun sag, moon Gemini and ascendant Virgo. I have ideas that I am afraid of putting in work because I’m afraid of commitments. And I think it’s hard to keep up without validation. Of course, I criticise myself and focus too much on details too.
Recently I have started an instagram account but I find it very difficult to focus especially when I feel like the effort I have put into it doesn’t reflect on the reactions from the audience.
Anyone has experiences transforming from dispersing your energy to focusing on something to actually make it work?

Anyone has met their soulmates so far?
In this half a year I have already met two “soulmates”, but my experiences are pretty rough.

Just for your reference I am a Sagittarius and one of them is a Libra and another one is a Leo. What I can say is, both are actually not the horoscopes or types that I would date.

When I met the libra, I did feel like I could get close to him almost instantly and he is a very sensitive individual. He literally told me the same thing and felt very close to me even we had never met in person at that time.
But because he was too obsessive with me and I was not on the same page with him, I cut it off. The whole thing ended in a really ugly way because I did not tell him the truth that I didn’t find him attractive.

Recently, I met a Leo. When I saw his profile on a dating app, I already knew exactly I was the kind of girl he was trying to look for according to what he wrote there.
But when we actually met in person, I was super surprised by how much our values/ what we like are the same or very similar, even though I didn’t tell him explicitly, “ oh I’m like that too”.
At first he expressed his interest/ affection to me, but for some unknown reasons, he started to withdraw. It could be due to our distances as we only met when we were both travelling in another country, or it could be pure karma that I upset that Libra. But I was super devastated about parting ways with him, and in fact, I instantly started crying when we parted ways. But he probably doesn’t know I like him that much.

After these two experiences I start to not understand what soulmates connections are like. Honestly in my previous relationships, the boyfriends I had were not soulmates with me, maybe “meaningful/powerful/extraordinary”, but they are so much more natural or easy to keep. While I do think soulmates connections are rare and almost feel fated, because of how magical the connection could be(It is unbelievable when you find people who are almost like you or who instantly get you in real life), they are very easy to lose to me.

Anyone has ever met their soulmate in real life and have similar experiences? Or did you eventually could keep a relationship with them?