Am I selfish for doing my job?
21f, I’m in university and am the eldest child. My parents have been telling me their problems and how we’re struggling in every way for my entire life. My boyfriend keeps telling me that they’re doing fine and they just say this but it caused me to go through life with a lot of difficulties and anxiety. I moved away for university to get better opportunities and I spent my time saving every penny and even ended up at the food bank a couple times, just a lot of financial stress, tried to do any job that I could find. I finally ended up getting an internship but I commute 4 hours everyday and the work is a lot, like I will be working till 12 AM sometimes.
My parents are mad for some reason that I’m trying to give this internship as much as I can, they even called me a slave at one point. They get mad if I’m sitting on the desk working and they’ll say things like oh her work isn’t even important. I get called selfish for asking to use the desk to do my work and get told that I only care about myself, and my future. It’s all causing me to have a mental breakdown, I’ve been getting chest pains like not anxiety chest pains these weird pains where it feels like my heart stops beating and I also haven’t been able to sleep lately. I don’t know how to make my situation better.