u/Patient_Win5239

I have a really big problem. My chart says that my goal is to grow alone (a lot of 12th house and other things). Very little 7th house (companion, relationships). But I have ALWAYS in my life craved for relationships and a company. At the same time I feel like I haven’t been blessed with it. So how does it make sense that my chart says that I don’t need much people around me but I have always felt like I do, even compared to a lot of other people who need at least some time alone. I seriously don’t get fed up being surrounded by people and it is where I get my energy. Is this like my karma or something, since as I mentioned I crave for relationships but haven’t been blessed with them at all. I find it very unfair that my chart determines my life and doesn’t align with what I really feel and want in life.

Sun in Virgo 4°30’, in 12th House

Moon in Virgo 10°49’, in 12th House

Mercury in Virgo 26°19’, Stationary, in 1st House

Venus in Virgo 7°06’, in 12th House

Mars in Pisces 5°09’, Retrograde, in 6th House

Jupiter in Virgo 0°10’, in 12th House

Saturn in Cancer 10°16’, in 10th House

Uranus in Pisces 0°41’, Retrograde, in 6th House

Neptune in Aquarius 11°09’, Retrograde, in 5th House

Pluto in Sagittarius 17°14’, Retrograde, in 3rd House

North Node in Taurus 24°21’, Retrograde, in 9th House

Lilith in Taurus 22°03’, in 9th House

Chiron in Capricorn 12°39’, Retrograde, in 4th House

Fortune in Virgo 28°38’, in 1st House

Vertex in Pisces 12°14’, in 6th House

ASC in Virgo 22°18’

MC in Gemini 18°44’

1st House in Virgo 22°18’

2nd House in Libra 12°58’

3rd House in Scorpio 11°05’

4th House in Sagittarius 18°44’

5th House in Capricorn 28°40’

6th House in Aquarius 29°20’

7th House in Pisces 22°18’

8th House in Aries 12°58’

9th House in Taurus 11°05’

10th House in Gemini 18°44’

11th House in Cancer 28°40’

12th House in Leo 29°20’

Sun Conjunction Moon (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Sun Conjunction Venus (Orb: 2°35’, Separating)

Sun Opposition Mars (Orb: 0°39’, Applying)

Sun Conjunction Jupiter (Orb: 4°19’, Separating)

Sun Opposition Uranus (Orb: 3°48’, Separating)

Moon Conjunction Venus (Orb: 3°43’, Separating)

Moon Opposition Mars (Orb: 5°39’, Separating)

Moon Sextile Saturn (Orb: 0°33’, Separating)

Moon Square Pluto (Orb: 6°24’, Applying)

Venus Opposition Mars (Orb: 1°56’, Separating)

Venus Conjunction Jupiter (Orb: 6°55’, Separating)

Venus Sextile Saturn (Orb: 3°10’, Applying)

Venus Opposition Uranus (Orb: 6°24’, Separating)

Mars Opposition Jupiter (Orb: 4°59’, Applying)

Mars Trine Saturn (Orb: 5°06’, Separating)

Mars Conjunction Uranus (Orb: 4°28’, Applying)

Jupiter Opposition Uranus (Orb: 0°30’, Applying)

Ascendant Conjunction Mercury (Orb: 4°00’, Applying)

Ascendant Square Pluto (Orb: 5°04’, Separating)

Ascendant Trine Node (Orb: 2°02’, Applying)

Ascendant Trine Lilith (Orb: 0°15’, Separating)

DSC Opposition Mercury (Orb: 4°00’, Applying)

DSC Square Pluto (Orb: 5°04’, Separating)

DSC Sextile Node (Orb: 2°02’, Applying)

DSC Sextile Lilith (Orb: 0°15’, Separating)

MC Square Moon (Orb: 7°55’, Separating)

MC Opposition Pluto (Orb: 1°30’, Separating)

IC Square Moon (Orb: 7°55’, Separating)

IC Conjunction Pluto (Orb: 1°30’, Separating)

Node Trine Mercury (Orb: 1°57’, Separating)

Node Square Jupiter (Orb: 5°48’, Separating)

Node Square Uranus (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Node Conjunction Lilith (Orb: 2°18’, Applying)

Lilith Trine Mercury (Orb: 4°15’, Applying)

Chiron Trine Sun (Orb: 8°09’, Applying)

Chiron Trine Moon (Orb: 1°49’, Applying)

Chiron Trine Venus (Orb: 5°33’, Applying)

Chiron Opposition Saturn (Orb: 2°23’, Applying)

Fortune Conjunction Mercury (Orb: 2°19’, Separating)

Fortune Trine Node (Orb: 4°16’, Separating)

Fortune Trine Lilith (Orb: 6°35’, Separating)

Fortune Conjunction Ascendant (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Fortune Opposition Vertex (Orb: 1°21’, Separating)

Fortune Opposition DSC (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Vertex Opposition Sun (Orb: 7°44’, Separating)

Vertex Opposition Moon (Orb: 1°24’, Separating)

Vertex Opposition Venus (Orb: 5°08’, Separating)

Vertex Trine Saturn (Orb: 1°58’, Separating)

Vertex Square Pluto (Orb: 4°59’, Applying)

Vertex Sextile Chiron (Orb: 0°25’, Applying)

Vertex Square MC (Orb: 6°30’, Separating)

Vertex Square IC (Orb: 6°30’, Separating)

Sun in Virgo 4°30’, in 12th House

Moon in Virgo 10°49’, in 12th House

Mercury in Virgo 26°19’, Stationary, in 1st House

Venus in Virgo 7°06’, in 12th House

Mars in Pisces 5°09’, Retrograde, in 6th House

Jupiter in Virgo 0°10’, in 12th House

Saturn in Cancer 10°16’, in 10th House

Uranus in Pisces 0°41’, Retrograde, in 6th House

Neptune in Aquarius 11°09’, Retrograde, in 5th House

Pluto in Sagittarius 17°14’, Retrograde, in 3rd House

North Node in Taurus 24°21’, Retrograde, in 9th House

Lilith in Taurus 22°03’, in 9th House

Chiron in Capricorn 12°39’, Retrograde, in 4th House

Fortune in Virgo 28°38’, in 1st House

Vertex in Pisces 12°14’, in 6th House

ASC in Virgo 22°18’

MC in Gemini 18°44’

1st House in Virgo 22°18’

2nd House in Libra 12°58’

3rd House in Scorpio 11°05’

4th House in Sagittarius 18°44’

5th House in Capricorn 28°40’

6th House in Aquarius 29°20’

7th House in Pisces 22°18’

8th House in Aries 12°58’

9th House in Taurus 11°05’

10th House in Gemini 18°44’

11th House in Cancer 28°40’

12th House in Leo 29°20’

Sun Conjunction Moon (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Sun Conjunction Venus (Orb: 2°35’, Separating)

Sun Opposition Mars (Orb: 0°39’, Applying)

Sun Conjunction Jupiter (Orb: 4°19’, Separating)

Sun Opposition Uranus (Orb: 3°48’, Separating)

Moon Conjunction Venus (Orb: 3°43’, Separating)

Moon Opposition Mars (Orb: 5°39’, Separating)

Moon Sextile Saturn (Orb: 0°33’, Separating)

Moon Square Pluto (Orb: 6°24’, Applying)

Venus Opposition Mars (Orb: 1°56’, Separating)

Venus Conjunction Jupiter (Orb: 6°55’, Separating)

Venus Sextile Saturn (Orb: 3°10’, Applying)

Venus Opposition Uranus (Orb: 6°24’, Separating)

Mars Opposition Jupiter (Orb: 4°59’, Applying)

Mars Trine Saturn (Orb: 5°06’, Separating)

Mars Conjunction Uranus (Orb: 4°28’, Applying)

Jupiter Opposition Uranus (Orb: 0°30’, Applying)

Ascendant Conjunction Mercury (Orb: 4°00’, Applying)

Ascendant Square Pluto (Orb: 5°04’, Separating)

Ascendant Trine Node (Orb: 2°02’, Applying)

Ascendant Trine Lilith (Orb: 0°15’, Separating)

DSC Opposition Mercury (Orb: 4°00’, Applying)

DSC Square Pluto (Orb: 5°04’, Separating)

DSC Sextile Node (Orb: 2°02’, Applying)

DSC Sextile Lilith (Orb: 0°15’, Separating)

MC Square Moon (Orb: 7°55’, Separating)

MC Opposition Pluto (Orb: 1°30’, Separating)

IC Square Moon (Orb: 7°55’, Separating)

IC Conjunction Pluto (Orb: 1°30’, Separating)

Node Trine Mercury (Orb: 1°57’, Separating)

Node Square Jupiter (Orb: 5°48’, Separating)

Node Square Uranus (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Node Conjunction Lilith (Orb: 2°18’, Applying)

Lilith Trine Mercury (Orb: 4°15’, Applying)

Chiron Trine Sun (Orb: 8°09’, Applying)

Chiron Trine Moon (Orb: 1°49’, Applying)

Chiron Trine Venus (Orb: 5°33’, Applying)

Chiron Opposition Saturn (Orb: 2°23’, Applying)

Fortune Conjunction Mercury (Orb: 2°19’, Separating)

Fortune Trine Node (Orb: 4°16’, Separating)

Fortune Trine Lilith (Orb: 6°35’, Separating)

Fortune Conjunction Ascendant (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Fortune Opposition Vertex (Orb: 1°21’, Separating)

Fortune Opposition DSC (Orb: 6°19’, Separating)

Vertex Opposition Sun (Orb: 7°44’, Separating)

Vertex Opposition Moon (Orb: 1°24’, Separating)

Vertex Opposition Venus (Orb: 5°08’, Separating)

Vertex Trine Saturn (Orb: 1°58’, Separating)

Vertex Square Pluto (Orb: 4°59’, Applying)

Vertex Sextile Chiron (Orb: 0°25’, Applying)

Vertex Square MC (Orb: 6°30’, Separating)

Vertex Square IC (Orb: 6°30’, Separating)

I finished my degree in economics, but realised it during my studies that I don’t like working in that field. It’s too dry. It was my second choice anyway. I wanted to study journalism and communications the most, but didn’t get accepted. I was also debating on studying civil engineering since I like building and doing physical work, but the programme is 5 years, so that will be a too long time for me. Since I feel like I am already drained with my studies and am not even sure if I can find a job. Honestly I have heard rumours that engineers do most of their work behind a computer so it is a possibility that I wouldn’t like that job either. I also choose a degree based on what I believe would secure me work. I feel depressed that I am unable to do a job that I enjoy. I can try applying to journalism and communications degree this year as well (after 4 tries), but I doubt getting accepted. For certain reasons a have to transfer some of my current subjects to a better university to have more job options. That will take me another year to finish my studies in a field I don’t even enjoy and am not sure if I can find a job. I also feel like those past 3 years have had a negative impact on my physic and nutrition since I haven’t had that much time taking care of myself. I feel so fragile and skinny with no energy. I feel like I want to immediately to go to the gym to build some muscle. This subject makes me stressed, because I want to live a healthy lifestyle and have freedom, but that requires money. Mentioning all of the things above, I don’t know how is it supposed to work out. Oh and I used to think completely the other way before, but after finishing my studies, I sincerely believe that university is a scam and a business. I don’t think that most degrees need to be studies for 3 years, including economics. Especially when it doesn’t guarantee finding a job after and having still poor or average pay. Does anyone have similar thoughts as I do or any suggestions? I wrote this text very fast and didn’t take a look of it after. English isn’t my native language so there can be some mistakes or the text can be a little all over the place. Sorry for that.