Had a little breakdown realization
Greetings humans,
Recently I had a fairly bad depressive episode after I got broken up with, and these last couple of months this has messed with the way I see myself-
I've known that i was enby for years- since I was around 14 or so.. The thing is, that to all my friends when I came out to them- I kinda went with "hey, really I'm fine with any pronouns" and "no of course im still [name]". Which resulted in me being treated just the same way as before, which is my fault really but still sucked quite a bit.
The past few days though, I realized that being enby is not a passive "not being a guy, not being a girl thing" and of course i knew that before, I just never really.. computed it. I treated myself like people should just decide which gender they wanted to give me- and that was a mistake. I had a very nice talk with one of my best friends just two hours ago, and now I actually feel like I can be myself- at least around them.