I’m supposed to get open heart surgery but I’m scared and don’t know what to do
Basically I’m 21 F and have 2 leaky valves, the surgeon is giving me only 2 options of, (I forgot the name) surgery every few years, like 10 years or so, or a mechanical replacement which I would have to live on really strong blood thinners my whole life.
Now I also have hs which is an auto immune condition which causes me to get bumps and they turn into open wounds and bleed; right now I’m in the hospital and they’re giving me a super low does of blood thinners just to not get blood clots and I have blood everywhere 24/7. Then also I have never been able to take care of myself properly, which is probably the reason this is happening to me at such a young age, so how am i supposed to keep up with making sure I don’t die, keeping up with meds so my heart won’t clot when I can’t even get up just to eat, I have adhd and it makes everything I do a million times harder to just DO IT, I’ve had infections bc of my hs and would have to go back to the doctor bc I wasn’t taking my meds probably.
I’m just really stressed out and don’t know what to do…