Lost my Mum suddenly, a week ago
My Mum was feeling unwell after Christmas. She basically didn’t leave the house all of January unless it was to see the doctors - who said nothing was wrong with her, making her feel like a hypochondriac.
Early February she was found collapsed at her home. Fire brigade had to break in. Ambulance took her to hospital.
In the 7 weeks she was there, her calcium levels were high but managed to reduce down. She fell whilst there and broke her leg. And she contracted pneumonia which she fought off. She had a liver biopsy as they found lesions — It took 3-4 weeks before we got those results.
On the Thursday we found out it was liver cancer, and that there was nothing that could be done. On the Sunday morning, we lost her.
Friday was the last day we were able to hold a conversation and I really wish we’d had a chance to discuss what she wanted.
We did find a song written in her notebook which we’ll use as a reflective piece. We’ve chosen the entrance music from a play she loved, and the exit music from a singer she loved. I think we know what flowers too. And I’m sure she’d be proud.
I suppose if anything, I’d love a message from my Mum. I don’t know what… but just something. It feels like we never got the goodbye she deserved.