u/Outrageous_Bed_763

Hi everyone. I am a 25 yr old male . I think I’ve been heavily depressed since 14… there’s been a few times I think I’ve felt a little better? But also I believe those times were just due to drugs or other coping methods like religion. I was a Christian but kinda falling out of it now. I’ve realized for 11 years of my life I’ve been miserable! I didn’t know it wasn’t normal to be suicidal everyday… I have had a few weak attempts but I was scared I’d go to hell and all this would continue in the afterlife. I’ve tried out so many damn resources but man… it seems it’s just worse and worse. Really can’t find motivation for ANYTHING. The way I talk and act people always poked fun that I’m like Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh, which is funny sometimes but also completely crushing that depression has become my main label and my whole identity….I believe this will be about my last call then maybe I can muster the balls. If anyone has last resort methods or something please lmk asap… thanks everyone hope yall have beautiful life’s. Does anyone also feel like depression is PHYSICALLY affecting them? Like weak in the knees, tired , like you literally have a weight over you? Thanks for reading if you made it this far…