Day 1 done
I started in 3rd grade and now I’ve just finished highschool, it held me back from a lot during those years which I wish I could get back but I just can’t.
I hit 3 weeks no porn for the first time two months ago since atleast 2019 but it could very well be further than that. I hit 2 weeks again after relapsing but I keep just falling back into it.
This time I’m trying no fap instead of no porn bc it just feels inevitable when doing one and not the other. However if I feel like I really need it around week 1-2 I’m gonna do it w/o porn
I’m happy I’ve completed day 1 and have more self improvement plans in order to keep my days busy.
Im doing this to really see what I can be without porn and fapping. I’m not sure if this has anything to do with it, but I used ti be the best in almost everything I did before it started to get pretty bad in middle school.
The hardest part for me is getting past the feeling of constant doom and social muteness in weeks 2-3.
The only trigger I’ve seriously noticed almost every time is scrolling on social media in my bed. Today I didn’t do it but I think my plan is to just keep my phone out of my room.
The saddest part about it all is living every day wanting to quit but not being able to, the focus just shifts toward quitting and it’s all that’s on my mind is quitting. Time just flies when you don’t live in the moment
I’m gonna document everyday because I really, really want to see what I can be without the habit.