My little sister
Omg i really really dont know where to start this. Ive been a lurker on here for years. And I just wanna tell yall, at this point where im at. So im a 31, pushing 32 this year, woman. My baby sister who just turned 30, we are a yr and a half apart. Has been on sooooo much since she was 11. First started with pills, then went to meth, and now shes a full blown fent addict. Ugh guys this shit kills me. We are from Oklahoma. Umm, i was always my sisters biggest supporter, first, shes my baby sis, she got married at 17, and it was a shit show. I hate it. My niece was born in 2015. She's turning 11 in August. My sister has only been apart of my babygirls life 4 out of the close to 11 yrs shes been alive. And it's to a point where my niece doesnt want anything to do with her parents. They both have completely checked out of her life. Yall im struggling because its just soooo fucking much. My beautiful babygirl is 10 going on 20. She's sooooo talented in art, and choir. She's been chosen so many times to lead choruses. She has gained soooo much weight. And trust she comes from thick women (outside my sister) her dad's side and ours. But they, since birth put her on a tablet and then when it all went downhill... my sister has nothing to do with her. She's ashamed. And its fucking disgusting to me. Idk im rambling. I wanted to talk about my sister. But my niece. I really dont know how to talk about her or my pain. Or the fact weve lost sooo many family members, from as young as 18, to 37 from fent. 6 cousins at this point. Idk yall. As the oldest sister to the fact that the ONLY thing I love, doesnt have parents. Idk I'm so bitter and angry. My sister was arrested a couple days ago. For the first time. For fent andba fent pipe. And I sooo hope she sits. Im so lost. We have no communication. She doesnt reach out. She's just so fucked. I really cant get this in one message. There's been so much. And I really just need a mutual. So we cant get this shit out. Idk. I feel like im screaming into the void.