I'm 20 and I don't know what I'm doing
I'm 20, turning 21 later on in the year and I feel like I've hit a plateau. My profession is tutoring Korean, and I really enjoy it but it's starting to slow down a bit. It's what's been keeping me on my feet since I do nothing but stay at home. And not of my own volition, I just don't have anywhere else to go. I graduated highschool but I don't have a bachelors degree. Again, not of my own volition. Going to uni would've made things harder for my mom financially so I chose to help out by tutoring full time from home. I also recently went through a breakup to a relationship that was pretty much a waste of my time, but he was the only person I could confide in so I put up with the bs until I couldn't anymore. To add onto all of this, I recently discovered that I have congenital foraminal stenosis, which basically means that there's a defect in the structure of my spine causing my nerves to compress and I've been dealing with the pain of that for months now. My doctor says I'll have to come up with a hospital plan soon because this will need surgery. I don't have a medical aid and I'll have to pay out of pocket. Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe from the weight of my issues. I'm only 20 but I have to figure so many things out in order to survive. I feel lonely sometimes. I think I just need some advice or maybe some reassurance that things will be fine I guess. Idk. Thanks for listening to my Ted Talk.