I'm going to make everyone happy :3
TW: suicide and dysphoria
I orderd a rope to make a noose to finally leave this world forever, because i didn't get born as a girl and was forced through the wrong puberty and got traumatised and got ireversible damage from it that can never be fixed and didn't get a girl childhood, i feel extremly guilty because everything is my fault
Ive been wanting to age regress to try to relive a girl childhood and cope better with everything but I'm too scared to talk about it with anyone irl.
I hate this cruel world so much and I'm not made for it, I'm just too scared, shy and vulnerable. I'm too disabled and cry every day for hours and never leave my room. I'm extremly lonely and I did sh until a few months ago, i have no irl friends and never had. I'm a huge failure and burden to my family and everyone, they will be happy when I'm finally gone and I will be too. I still need to write a farewell letter and then it's hopefully over in a few days...
I'm sorry everyone it's okay if you hate me