I want to relapse so badly, but I can't because I've decided that I need to stop doing this for summer since I'm scared my mom will find out for 3rd time. Without doing that I sometimes get those outbursts of anger or something like that because I have nowhere to release those emotions. This whole situation freaking sucks.
So I'm supposed to sleep rn but, there was a small spider on my wall, and when I was checking my phone and I looked there again it was gone, so idk where it is and I will probably not sleep well tonight because idk where it is rn :<
Today I told the only friend that knows I still sh-ed that I stopped a couple of weeks ago, but, I deadass did it a couple of hours ago (some of my friends knew that I did it and that I stopped but never told them I continued after a small while)