Going to a concert without my baby
Hello everyone! I am seriously frustrated and confused. Also guilty without having decided anything YET!
So, me and mu husband bought rock concert tickets around a year ago. Huge concert at a stadium with probably 60k capacity.
What happened after buying the tickets is I got pregnant and I am currently with a two month old baby.
Doing everything i can to stimulate it my breastmilk was never enough from the start and i give him AM after he gets what he can from my breasts. Still, he does not give up and ALWAYS searches for them before having the baby bottle.
Here comes the problem. The date of the concert is soon and he will be 3 months old exactly. I have talked to my parents to come and look after him but the best plan is for me and my husband to be gone for 3 days.
First of all, of course I am feeling extremely guilty if I go because I haven’t left the baby for more than half a day. Second, I am very very worried he would give up on breastfeeding because 3 days is a lot and I do not have enough milk for him from the beginning. That would leave me heartbroken. Third, the amount of people there will be there! I am constantly worried because I gave birth in winter and a virus has spread very fast in my country. People were coughing and sneezing everywhere. Our tickets are in the front area near the stage which means I cannot go somewhere not so crowded. Fourth, I was gonna go with my best friend and her boyfriend which now leaves me worried if they will have someone to go with cause going to such concert just the two of them without company is making me feel worried. Last but not least, I am worried he will be uncomfortable because after 5 p.m he is in pain because of colics but the situation is not unmanageable.
Mind you, since we left the hospital, the baby has had a nose bacteria, rash and we just got him vaccinated. Also, we are trying to find a way where my parents can travel to a city closer to the concert so I can breastfeed him sooner. That is also a problem though because all I am thinking about now is that I could get sick in the crowd or carry a virus I do not know about and do not have symptoms.
I really wanna go but guild is eating me from the inside out the last few days. If someone has gone to such place with so many people and then has been with their baby so soon please share your experience.