u/Oceanswim12

hey can folks who live or lived here chime in - I just moved and feel out of my element. I have old white men on both sides of me watching my every move, even saying which door I should use- even telling my dad which door. lmao just totally bizarre and odd behavior. I feel like I just moved to a bad block but I feel sick over it. are there any young ppl here?? or is it mostly a Christian cult here?? I feel like people just watch and judge and I’m just a boring non practicing white girl. I’m not used to being watched so carefully. I don’t have parties and am respectful so I don’t understand. I am straight but an ally of the lgbqt community and just found out there is a high concentration of gays here - what area of town?? I‘m guessing I’m on the opposite side. I have just really struggled to find people here and it’s not what I expected to happen so I’m horrified. sorry this is such a weird post 😂

seems the skin absorbs the lotion and the tanner sits on top not absorbing - is that correct? is there a way to work around that? my unfortunate solution is to skip lotion but I hate the feeling of that / sometimes forget. wasted a full bodys worth of tan trying it again yesterday lol

I haven’t reached my breaking point in awhile I think but lately it’s more severe I guess cause I tried something new and am herxing more and inflamed. I’m just so sick of it all. years and years of grasping at what is barely a life worth living and I can’t keep surviving on my own like this. my entire family turns the other way when things get hard. I can’t even get to my doc appt this week at the rate things are going. and my tipping point was learning something about my sleep cycle being off is actually intertwined with the body’s natural cycle affecting histamine and its not my fault I finally come awake at night - ive been angry and fighting it so long. I’m just so angry and sick of this. my time is running out because my money is running out. it’s been ten+ years of doing this alone with no real help.

any update? hope they’re okay.