First post
Hello everyone, this is my first time talking about this to anyone, but I have a sex addiction. It started when I was around 13 when I discovered masturbation and porn. I would masturbate multiple times a day, every day, up to this day. As time went by I understood pretty fast that this was bad, how I hated myself a little more every time, how my perception of women and life in general changed.
Now I’m a young adult, barely able to be responsible for my own breakfast, falling down this endless pit of misery. The worst part is that I go back to it with excitement, like it doesn’t matter, like I’m being a drama queen for freaking out about all of this.
And now I’m even deeper. I’m struggling not to go online and pay for sex that doesn’t even feel good and wrenches my guts just thinking about it. I relapsed just an hour ago and I’ve never felt so scared of anything in my life.
And idek what to do anymore, with our phones overstimulating us, trapping us in this digital world of endless entertainment while making us want things we don’t actually want. I really want to try and change, but everything seems insurmountable and I don’t know where to start.
I’d really love to hear from you guys. feedback, advice, or your own story if you’re willing to share. What worked for you? What didn’t? I’m all ears.