I'm tired of being like this.
I'm 22 years old, and I discovered a year and a half ago that I have autism spectrum disorder (type 1), ADHD, anxiety, and severe depressive disorder, and honestly, this greatly hinders my ability to live in society. I just want to be normal. Every day I start looking for a way to find a cure, a medicine, punishments, overdoses of medication, blows to the head, or even surgery that will rid me of this damn disease. Sensory overload gives me severe headaches and eye pain, always starting at times when there is zero stress and noise, after resting, after eating a good meal. Almost everything that's done to avoid a crisis or overload makes me wonder if a doctor would offer me something that would cure me overnight.
(Please ignore any spelling errors; English is not my native language.)