Discouraged
I have had really bad vaginismus for about 2 years. Dilators and pelvic floor therapy haven't helped me. One time my husband and I were trying, he didn't fully get inside but I ended up getting pregnant. I ended up having a beautiful boy but I couldn't even complete the cervical checks. They actually ended up giving me an epidural early just so they could do the checks. After I gave birth I didn't have sex for about 6 months because I had an episiotomy and was disconnected from my body. Just wanted to focus on healing. When we started to have sex, I could have pain free intercourse! I was so happy and I finally felt normal!
I ended up getting pregnant again and when I had the transvaginal ultrasound I was in so much pain I was crying. The doctor asked if I wanted to stop but I knew I needed to just complete the ultrasound so I tried to persevere. Now whenever my husband and I try, it doesn't work and I am back to the beginning.
I don't know what to so. The pelvic floor therapy and dialators aren't helping. Does anyone have any other strategies? I thought I was healed but I'm so discouraged that I will have to live with this for the rest of my life.