Should I have blocked him?
FYI, I’m using voice text so it may be a little iffy.
Two years ago, I met this guy on Discord. He was really cool and I wanted to be friends with him. We used to talk almost every day for hours sometimes and before I knew it, I got feelings for him.
Right around the time we stopped talking I went to the mental ward. I didn’t tell him why was a the ward or that I was even admitted. I only told him I would be gone for three days. He didn’t ask why, so I didn’t tell him. When I got back after the two weeks, I didn’t have any messages from him. Only thing I got was TikToks our streaks.
Won’t lie, that hurt me hard.
He never asked where I was and I think he cared. Anyway, he started being distant because he found actual friends in his neighborhood. I was happy for him because I used to encourage him to, because that seemed important to him.
However, we kind of grew apart and he stopped putting in effort, I think. I remember trying to talk to him and he read it and didn’t respond. I confronted him and he told me that he was “busy.” I left it at that, and I didn’t bring it up again.
I remember reaching out to him again and he called me some other then girl’s name 💀. And that hurt REALLY bad. I stopped talked to him consistently and tried to break away but I would find myself waiting or hoping he’d actually text me, but he never did. He’d just send videos, even after he let our streak die after I got out the hospital.
So after crying (unfortunately) and overthinking and talking to my mother, I decided that I needed to block him if I was gonna get myself to calm down. I needed to cut contact. So I blocked him on everything, and after maybe 2 weeks, he reached out to me and asked if I deleted my socials.
I responded with a lie and gave stupid excuses; he never replied so after that I told him the truth. Very vague truth, I admit because I was afraid of being up front. I admitted to that in the message and called myself a coward💀 but then I blocked him from that social too.
And I’m trying to move on but I really miss him. I keep talking to my friends about it, hoping to get the guts to unblocked him and talk about it, but there’s too many things pointing me against that. He told me that I’d be gone if he ever got a girlfriend💀💀 and I thought he was joking.
I don’t know what to think. Maybe I was over reacting and doing too much. Maybe I hurt him for cutting him off after 2 years. Plus I cut him off only 2 days before his birthday 🙁. He didn’t even remember my birthday either last year and now that I’m taking off the rose colored glasses, he didn’t seem to put in much effort. Fuck, I don’t know.
Should I have blocked him or talked about it first