I have a crush and now he’s distancing himself
We met on the internet and there was an instant spark between us. We texted, talked and games often. As it’s long distance we didn’t have a chance to meet yet but he said he’s planning it. He’s been the most lovely, respectful and overall great guy. Then suddenly for no reason he didn’t text for a few days and my heart is shattering. He said he had few bad days and was overwhelmed but when I asked for a reason he didn’t tell me. He said he had to step back but reason is unknown. He doesn’t know of any of my diagnoses and I don’t feel like I did anything wrong. I feel like dying/killing myself daily. I was recently diagnosed with bpd and can’t really handle such situations without being self destructive/suicidal. Any advice or input would be appreciated, I can’t live in this hell.