The thought of suicide fascinates me lately
I want to do it soon by railroad near me. I almost did it in 2018 or 19, but I was too coward back then and felt like I had to see what this life has to offer. Well i'm glad I stuck around for a while, it's been painful decade for me, but I kinda feel at peace now and ready to go. I'm glad I stuck to this moment because I found my God, I feel like afterlife is so much better than life on earth could ever be for me. I have some projects that I would like to finish, but it would take years, maybe I'll stick around till I finish my projects and then truly feel like I've accomplished most important things for me, but damn, this feels like a good time to leave earth. Would be really nice to leave this place somewhat peaceful and quick. Laying on railroad would be messy but I imagine quick, painless and guaranteed death. Very much thinking about it.