u/NoTicket9057

I dont think this is a common problem in my life but tonight there as someone I built up resentment before n let it out in a messed up way. i am gonna send a brief message or leave a brief letter at hers apologising again n just taking blame to hopefully make it hurt her less. I didn't want this person in my life but i handled it so poorly and actually just cruel. this is has got to make top 5 worse things iv done. if nothing else it's really made me want therapy ASAP n I have some avenues aside from my mental health team to pursue. but damn being the bad person is so much worse than being the victim sometimes. like I made her cry n I trued to apologise n back down but it wasn't as sincere or repentant as it should have e been. I'm pretty sick at my behaviour and feel like I dont deserve any friends.