I can't keep this up
37 m here , been living alone since I was 20 and recently my parents have had to move in with me (hope it's not for too long) , but I find that they still want to get on my ass as if I were still a child. If I don't do things a certain way then it means I'm doing it wrong , and it's little things , I can't ask them a simple question without getting backlash or getting a rude answer back , like if I'm the one being a burden. They often throw things in my face , like the times they've helped me when I was in prison and yeah I'm appreciative but it doesn't give them a reason to try to yell or talk rudely to me. I'm a born again Christian and have been for over 20 years , I know the bible says honor your father and your mother and I do , but there's only so much I can take , especially my mom ever since I was a child she would verbally abuse me , saying I'm worthless and dumb , retarded , that I'll never amount to anything , telling me I'm the only reason she's with my dad. I can see now why the Lord pulled me away from them at an early age , because when I was living alone sure I would struggle sometimes to even eat but there was peace and tranquility in my house, now because she cooks dinner she acts entitled and expects me to praise her or something , I tried explaining that a son/daughter isn't supposed to owe their parent anything , and I've told her not to make me dinner or anything that I can manage on my own , and I tell her that because I know one day in the future she'll just end up throwing that in my face. Now I honestly don't want anything from them I tried talking to them as adults but they are super dismissive. I feel like I've grown apart from them but for them it's impossible to see that I just pray the Lord forgives me for giving up , because I've tried to share my beliefs with them but they don't want to receive the good news. It seems that they thrive on hate or idk because even between them they just fight and argue , I hope God heals their heart and gives them peace. I guess I just needed to vent after what happened last night , basically the straw that broke the camels back happened last night. I don't want to kick them out or anything like that but seriously my leave of mind is seriously jeopardized, I don't trust them around my son , I don't want my mom to end up telling him things when I'm not around and since he's non verbal , I just feel like she would do something like that , well anyway I just needed to vent I'll pray about this and keep going, idk why they are back in my life after so many years , but if there's a lesson for me to learn then I'm open for it.