u/Nice-Eye3171

Now I know i am kind of in the wrong, i said "fuck you" to one of the guys over there named Slice, who's a moderator. Now that was a month ago, and today i tried to friend him to tell him im sorry and just wanted to apologize, and than i sent another person a friend request so that they could tell him for me, since i was previously muted for 99999999 or something hours. Now I wasn't gonna actually wait 11,415 years. So i was hoping he was joking, but when i tried friending the other person, they said that i was trying to friend them, and that i was lurking in the chat watching everything they were saying. Then this dude slice says "who cares" and bans me from the server. This slice dude is such a geezer man, he bans mutes or bans everyone who he thinks is a dumbass for just joking around with him. And I'm not saying what i said was a joke, but it kind of was,s but to him, everything is serious, bro you aren't being paid a DIME for what you do. And it's kind of annoying to know that and see you take this so seriously unc.

I'm going into high school, i have a 3.84 gpa as my latest report. I turn in all my assignments on time. A very important saying to me is "show up and do the work". Nobody showed it to me; there was no important occasion when a family member showed that to me. But it's very important to me in my school life, so basically i am a very good student in school. Late, Ii have been feeling like something is missing in my life, or that something is messing with me, and I've been feeling angry. I was in church at my school, and i got this feeling like i needed to leave. And I'm pretty sure i began to pass out. i felt like i was thinking about a thousand things at the same time. My vision started to go into a void of some sort. And I couldn't, i left and couldnt grab back the balance in myself. i spoke to someone and i explained i needed to get out,t and i had that feeling in my throat like there was a golf ball in my throat. I gave an elderly lady 5 dollars after she asked me for 15, and that was the angriest I'veI'm been in my not long amount of years of living. I feel like i serve no purpose to anything, I have very cool things in my head that i want to bring into this world, but it amazes me how it will just never happen. Im supposed to be grateful to be living in California with my whole family, but i feel like I'm not grateful for it. I've done one year of boxing and 6 months of karate, but that doesn't matter as time just passes All the people i met during that time are just gone now, I'll probably never see them again. I feel like i want to become a very famous person, and say the worst things ever. I feel like i need help. I haven't received a message from anyone outside of my family the whole day. My phone has been nothing the whole day. But when i go outside, I feel like nothing matters, when i walk my dog i feel like nothing matters, i could say whatever i want. When i go out on runs, I can do whatever i want. But i still feel like there'sI a restraint on me holding me from the thingI reallyly want to do. i work hard for school, I'll never hear my name called as valedictorian,im below 16.