Rant/questions
Hi. I recently got diagnosed with ghsv-1 in March. I have had a hard time coping with this diagnosis and feel like my quality of life is ruined.. I really just need to rant as well as ask for tips on certain things. I have no one to talk to besides my mom.
I got ghsv-1 from a guy I was casually seeing. We used protection, but he went down on me and that is how I got it. The only reason why I have a strong feeling it was him is because he was sick at the time, and the next day I saw him I realized he had a bump on his mouth. I have never dealt with anyone who got cold sores so I had no idea that this could happen… Fast forward, I got flu like symptoms a few days later along with one singular “pimple”. Which then turned into multiple sores.
I am absolutely terrified to fully date again, to accidentally transmit, to disclose, and to even touch myself down there. I have been thinking about my diagnosis every day and I wish I could turn my brain off.
I am a single mom of a toddler and the one thing I’m truly terrified is of accidentally transmitting this to her somehow. I keep our loofahs separate now, I don’t take showers with her anymore, I wash my hands at least 6 times after I use the restroom to the point that I am developing eczema on my hands. I just hate this so much.
•How do I disclose this to someone? I need a literal script on how to do so otherwise I know I’ll panic. :(
•Is there any way that I could transmit this to my toddler accidentally?
•How do I keep my pubic area bare?!
I shaved once and it made me have an outbreak. I just feel so defeated.
Please give me some words of hope. I appreciate you taking the time to read this if you read this far, more than you know.