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I was spending off my time with my parents yesterday, bc it was Mother’s Day and they were all at home

I was struggling, no matter mentally or physically. I ended up struggling with depression and anxiety in daytime having mental breakdown and fever afterwards.

I really cannot manage it, I was a CSA survivor, sexually exploited and SA by different ppl that I know, some I don’t know as they were all simply “the family friends”

And my parents just simply muted me since I was a kid, abused me when I tried to call for help, and guilt me by me betraying everyone if I tell.

I was dissociated for two days straight up and struggled a lot with the incontinence badly, feeling very upset and unable to manage the mess and feeling very overwhelmed. I know I need to be taking care of my hygiene but in the moment I just freeze and incapable to help myself immediately.

I don’t know, just feeling so screwed, I wanna just be able to hide from everything. I felt like it’s never going to be getting better

I was spending off my time with my parents yesterday, bc it was Mother’s Day and they were all at home

I was struggling, no matter mentally or physically. I ended up struggling with depression and anxiety in daytime having mental breakdown and fever afterwards.

I really cannot manage it, I was a CSA survivor, sexually exploited and SA by different ppl that I know, some I don’t know as they were all simply “the family friends”

And my parents just simply muted me since I was a kid, abused me when I tried to call for help, and guilt me by me betraying everyone if I tell.

I was dissociated for two days straight up and struggled a lot with the incontinence badly, feeling very upset and unable to manage the mess and feeling very overwhelmed. I know I need to be taking care of my hygiene but in the moment I just freeze and incapable to help myself immediately.

I don’t know, just feeling so screwed, I wanna just be able to hide from everything. I felt like it’s never going to be getting better